有三个多月的时间没来自己的博客了,偶然在自己的空间里漫步,倒是一件乐事.看着自己以前的想法和心情,那一点点的张狂、傲慢以及孤独,禁不住莞尔一笑.以后的日子要开始参与工作中的事务,大学的时光将成为过去,留恋也好,感慨也好,人总是要一步步的走自己的路.我有时候会觉得有那么一点点的哀伤,人如果太清楚自己的路应该怎么走是一种幸福还是一种悲哀?有时我会想起电影《猜火车》中男主角阿麦在电影结尾中的一段旁白“选择生命、选择工作、选择终身职业、选择家庭、选择他妈的大电视、选择洗衣机、汽车、CD机……选择健康低胆固醇和牙医保险,选择楼宇按揭,选择买第一间房子,选择你的朋友,选择分期付款的三件头西装、选择星期天边看无聊电视边吃零食,选择苟延残喘,选择在老人院尿床、在像你一样的狗男女们面前丢脸,选择将来、选择生命……”我不想在这里探讨生存或者生活的意义,我已经想的太多,柏拉图、亚里斯多德、笛卡尔、斯宾若沙、康德、休谟、黑格尔、罗素、维特根斯坦、尼采、海德格尔......毕竟他们不是与我们生活在同一个时代同一个国度,也许他们给我们这个世界带来了很大的影响,但他们留给我们的东西也只是一点点.
人是最善于忘记的动物,又是最善变的动物,往往变得忘记自己是活着的.可能对于我来说现在最重要的是不断的体验新的生活,毕竟我还很幼稚,当然还很年轻.我记得国内的一位法学学者应该是开玩笑的说过,做律师应该在结婚之后,呵,他的意思是复杂的,但其中也说明了我们还需要不断的在这个社会中体验和思考吧.这又让我想起了台湾电影《兰色大门》,在电影快要结束时,男女主人公在他们的最后的一次约会中,年少的男主角张士豪感慨的说道"但是总会留下点什么吧,留下什么我们就会变成什么样的大人".我挺喜欢这部电影的,喜欢这种带着淡淡忧伤、淡淡喜悦的风格,当然也挺喜欢他的这句话.在他们的身上我总能看到自己的影子,年轻真是一件无比快乐的事情.
PS:现在要处理的事情比较多,我写博客初衷是给自己留下点生活的痕迹以及感受同朋友们随意交流中的快乐,所以不定期的更新是比较适合我的方式,希望朋友们不要见怪.
Lggy Pop - Lust For Life 《猜火车》电影原声
Here comes Johnny in again
With liquor and drugs
And a fast machine
He's gonna do another strip tease.
Hey man, where'd ya get that lotion?
I've been hurting since I'm up again
With something called love
Yeah, something called love.
Well, that's like hypnotizing chickens.
Well, I'm just a modern guy
Of course, I've had it in the ear before.
I have a lust for life
'Cause I've a lust for life.
I'm worth a million in prizes
With my torture film
Drive a GTO
Wear a uniform
On a government loan.
I'm worth a million in prizes
Yeah, I'm through with sleeping on the sidewalk
No more beating my brains
No more beating my brains
With liquor and drugs
With liquor and drugs.
Well, I'm just a modern guy
Of course, I've had it in my ear before
Well, I've a lust for life (lust for life)
'Cause I've a lust for life (lust for life, oooo)
I've got a lust for life (oooo)
Got a lust for life (oooo)
Oh, a lust for life (oooo)
Oh, a lust for life (oooo)
A lust for life (oooo)
I got a lust for life (oooo)
Got a lust for life
Well, I'm just a modern guy
Of course, I've had it in my ear before
Well, I've a lust for life
'Cause I've a lust for life.
Well, here comes Johnny in again
With liquor and drugs
And a fast machine
I know he's gonna do another strip tease.
Hey man, where'd ya get that lotion?
Your skin starts itching once you buy the game
With something called love
Love, love, love
Well, that's like hypnotizing chickens.
Well, I'm just a modern guy
Of course, I've had it in the ear before
And I've a lust for life (lust for life)
'Cause I've a lust for life (lust for life)
Got a lust for life
Yeah, a lust for life
I got a lust for life
A lust for life
Got a lust for life
Yeah a lust for life
I got a lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life.